Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Ananya's first day of school.

Ananya's going to school!! yes 31st july( rajesh's bday) was her first day of school.
yahoooooooooooooooooooo!!!! i've bcome the mom of a grown up kid..i wish i cud say that.. but there's more to it!! i've put her in a play school near by(walkable). this is a vvvvv small school with only 10 children and 2 teachers..v've enrolled her here so that she gets used to children and outsiders..but believe me it's not as easy as it sounds. she cried the first day and v thought she might b okay in a day or two..but this is her second week and still she cries.
The irony is, even i cried. I know, its hard to believe it . but yes, i cried that day when i came back home without her.Felt the house was so empty, lifeless without her. i ran back to school at 11.30 for which i was waiting...Is this motherhood?? donno for sure!! still rajesh's teasing me abt that..may b i might feel it funny when she grows up. but right now all i feel is i've left my angel amongst the cruel wicked cunning people..donno y??
i kept calling her school every 1hr..they said she's doing okay..i hope she gets used to it soon to remove those illogical thoughts from my mind....
one day when she grows up, when v'll have lots of stories to talk abt, when she'll ask me abt her childhood, then i will show her this blog. never know she might make fun of me, or think i am mad. but only i know how much i love her!!period.

Friday, August 04, 2006

the big decision

i lost the habit of updating my diary long back, since i left school. May b i felt it was a waste of time, or lost track of wat was happening with me.not sure.
But now i feel the need to write down my daily happenings. This day in my life will never come back again. good!! not too late...Well... so decided to update my posts promptly with all thats been happening with me. lets c if it really works out!! me not sure anyways!!:)

Tuesday, July 11, 2006

came back a week bfore from US to fiji.. though a lot happy to c rajesh and to hand over the daughter to her dad, yet there is something thats been bothering me here....
guess i miss rajesh's family here..yaa rajesh's family.... to my surprise this time its his family i am missing terribly...
initially when i was thinking of visiting them heard my friends were surprised and were teasing me like "wat will u do there with them? they r not even ur family? how will u pass time??"
but i was not worried..i already blended well with them and yes v had a certain degree of understanding thats hard to c in families nowadays!! thank god!! v make a wonderful family....
had a great time there, loads of fun and yes it did good for the babies of the family too...they got to c their cousins... they didn't miss their silly fights and pushings and other stuff.. yet they were so cute!!! they r now like 3 little angels of the family!!
manni and i had lots to discuss..caught up on so many untold!!cant forget the way v use to laugh pulling each others legs.. I felt as if i am on a picnic with my friends . mil and fil were sweet too and had a nice was a nice break for them
v all missed rajesh and am sure he missed us too...
i owe a lot to each one of them, surely for their love and affection they showered on me and making me a part of this family !!!
these 3 months of my life will always b special .
i came back home with a heavy heart. but with loads n loads of good memories and stories to tell rajesh.

Saturday, February 04, 2006


Oh no I was never like this,
My face looks aged,
Is this the sign of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
My maturity goes beyond limits,
Is this the magic of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
I am still searching my lost innocence,
Is this the curse of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
My temper drives me crazy,
Is this the outcome of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
I try to read people’s eyes,
Is this the ability of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
I bother too much about the world than thinking about myself
Is this the nuisance of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
My priorities have changed
Is this the effect of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
I get lost in my thoughts,
Is this the inspiration of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
I misinterpret people for nothing,
Is this the pest of my age?

Oh no I was never like this,
What has age done to me?
Is it good or bad?
I don’t find the answer,
Is this the uncertainity of my age?
Oh god u know I was never like this,
Please take back this age and give me my childhood.

Saturday, January 14, 2006



How to make a woman happy........ It's really not difficult...
To make a woman happy; a man only needs to be:

1. a friend 2. a companion 3. a lover 4. a brother 5. a father 6. a master 7. a chef 8. an electrician 9. a carpenter 10. a plumber 11. a mechanic 12. a decorator 13. a stylist 17. a psychologist 18. a pest exterminator 19. a psychiatrist 20. a healer 20. a good listener 22. an organizer 23. a good father 24. very clean 25. sympathetic 26. athletic 26. warm 27. attentive 28. gallant 29. intelligent 30. funny 31. creative 32. tender 33. strong 34. understanding 35. tolerant 36. prudent 37. ambitious 38. capable 39. courageous 40. determined 41. true 42. dependable 43. passionate

WITHOUT FORGETTING TO: 44. give her compliments regularly 45. love shopping 46. be honest 47. be very rich 48. not stress her out 49. not look at other girls AND AT THE SAME TIME, YOU MUST ALSO: 50. give her lots of attention, but expect little yourself 51. give her lots of time, especially time for herself 52. give her lots of space, never worrying about where she goes

IT IS VERY IMPORTANT: 53. Never to forget: * birthdays * anniversaries * arrangements she makes

HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY : 1. Leave him in peace

Saturday, January 07, 2006


Its been 4 1/2 yrs since i'm married and i think i'm now totally qualified to write an article exclusively about these poor fellows on earth, i mean husbands. oh my god!!! i feel they are the most unfortunate people on earth!!!!!!!!! surprised?? i mean r the reasons:

They r forced to mediate between their wives and mothers, whatever the cause and effect be. sometimes i remember my husband enacting all kind of smilies on his face when he's left to talk inbetween(hehhehe...........).

i know they must be tired of proving the world that they r the same even after marriage, but all in vain. bcos complaints keep coming up from everybody"he's changed a lot after marriage","he's always behind his wife", "he has nothing for his parents", etc etc......

i dont know if any other wife has experienced this... many of whom i know they always want their husbands to be the same, like.... how they were before marriage(especially when its love marriage), though sometimes they perfectly understand its too much to ask for. how can they be the same, when they know that they can not have any other girl(or woman) in their life(just kidding)..

i bet all the husbands in this world will be sick and tired of this question and answering them:
"how do i look today?", "do i look okay?","am i pretty?". Though the questions keep changing, dare they change the answer. It should always be"oh! u r gorgeous!!!, beautiful!!!, very lucky to have a wife like u".

these r the common differences i found in many couples:

1. he thinks i'm immatured- wife, she thinks i've become too matured-husband

2. dont flirt-wife, have i told this to her anytime-husband

3. what do i cook- wife, should i answer this everyday-husband

4.v need to go shoppin-wife, oh not again-husband

there r so many like these.
thats y its said"manaivi amaivathellaam, iraivan kodutha varam".
but i know what they must be thinking"y does god ever bless us?"

so u husbands out there and the husbands to be.. dont worry u have lots of company and lots more to come.

v cant help u because, u r destined to undergo all these.


It was raining heavily outside. Shikha was passifying her baby who was in deep sorrow caused due to the massive thunder and lightning outside. The baby was only 3 months old.
Shika did not know how she’s going to help the baby grow through the rest of their lives without any one’s support.
She felt desolated and totally distressed like how any other mother would feel in her situation. When the baby finished his milk he calmed down and without any compulsion he went to his dream land.
Now shika got lost in her past. The past which had made her come so far in life. The past she never ever imagined in her dreams.

So this was her 3rd pregnancy ever after she was pushed into this battle of life. With none of her previous pregnancies she had this kind of feeling for the foetus inside her than this one. She has some sense of belongingness for this baby inside her though she knew what the reality is. But never in her dreams did she imagine that she’ll be left alone with this baby in the world for them to survive. Life just went on smoothly till her 7th month. Not until then she knew what destiny was. The baby’s parents met with an accident and died on the spot.
Here is her fate, here is her fortune. She did not know what to do with the baby inside her.
May be she was destined to live for the baby. God has given a meaning to her life.
The baby, did not know how god has changed his story even before he’s born.
At least he’s got a mother now, though she’s a surrogate mother.